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If I were to die tomorrow, what would you say to me today?

wow jump down my throat...

Wow this evening there was a kid that totally jumped down my throat. i was rather affended. He had commented that he would be a little late because he had to go pick up some key and that he would call me to make sure he knew how to get there. Well so when it was all done, I noticed that he hadnt gotten there so I texted him and told him I was glad to see you could make it.

Then comes the interesting part. He sends me back this message cussing me out about how busy he and his life are. I thought to myself wow, who do you think you are. Then what makes that whole thing so funny is that he is just like others. He feels that he needs to critisize and make others feel bad when they are not at the activities that he is, but by golly he can miss whatever he wants, because:

HE IS BUSY, AND HAS A BUSY LIFE!!!!

Now don't we all have busy lifes and commitments???

I know that I do, and that I would never judge someone for not coming, and I know that i wouldn't act the way that some people do about it. Whatever though. :) Life goes on, and life is too short to get worked up and stress over little stupid things like that, I just had to let out my feelings. :)

dancing

Tonight I went and saw Southern Utah University Ballroom Dance Company perform at CSI Fine Arts Center. It was super cool. They were amazing. I was a little late to the performance because I had another event I was at. So...I was an hour late. But what I saw of it, it was super good.

I really wish I could dance. I also wish I could dance like them.

very greatful

Well I have finished my paper. Well kinda. I have not turned it in, and I have just sent it to be editted. So i guess really I am not done, but i almost am. I really feel good about the paper and what I presented. I just hope that my teacher feels that it is good.

I really am surprised that there have been so many people that have approached me and said that they were interested in reading it. I just hope that I can remember all of you who have expressed interest in it.

thank you captain obvious...

this was just simply too good to pass up. my accounting/business law teacher is a very interesting man. over the course of this semester we have learned many interesting things that as far as i am concerned any normal person would know. well apparently he doesnt feel the same as me.

the first thing that we learned was what a statue was in business law. "for those of you who don't know, it is a little figurine that is usually made out of wood or metal." wow i was floored. i had no idea that someone would not know what a statue was. but....he felt the need to explain.

next in business law a few days later we learned what porno was. "it is nasty pictures of dirty movies" now if in this day and age people do not know what porn is, they have lived a very sheltered life. now i am not saying if they have not seen it, because i know that there are many of us that have not seen it. but there is a difference between seeing and knowing what it is. and i think that any normal person would at least know what it is. but....i guess he felt the need to explain.

then yesterday i got a double whammy.

in business law he told us what a twinkie was. once again i thought that was something that most everyone knows what they are but...this was his explanation. "they are sugary treats made by hostess." as i said i really didnt think that he needed to explain what a twinkie was. but...i guess he did.
later yesterday i went to accounting and we were going along and he decides that he is going to tell us what tourette's syndrome was. this one i could maybe understand explaining a little. unfortunately i didnt feel well yesterday and didnt get his explanation but...the explanation was not what was so funny about this whole thing. it was the fact that he was running around the room making very odd sounds that i didnt even know existed. i guess another thing that made me think it was so odd was that it had nothing to do with the class. he just stopped and started explaining it. whereas the other things that he has done had something to do with what we were talking about in class.

well i just hope that all this wonderful pieces of information that he has taught us helps us on the test. somehow i dont think that they will, but maybe possibly.

i think i am going to die

i really do not feel well at all.

adventure of spring break

as i previously mentioned, i am on spring break. i am really having a greaat time. i really was worried about the whole idea that it was spring break. i def needed the break but had no fantasticly wonderful plans. i really had been wanting to go someplace warm and to fly. i have never flown and i really wanted to. i had some great plans and was going to go to somewhere like hawaii or vegas. i really was going to take off and go. i didnt have anyone to go with, but i figured you know what, i will just go to vegas for a day or so and have a good time. i really thought long and hard and came to the conclution that i was not going to go. i am not sure why exactly i didnt. i want to say that because i didnt i am safer. i dont know that there would have been anything that would have happened, but decided that i was not going to go.

because i didnt go....

i have been able to stay home here in twin and have had a wonderful opportunity to work. i have been working almost everyday. it has been wonderful. instead of going somewhere and spending money, i am here and earning money. what a good trade off. at least that is what i thought. i have gotten to meet some absolutely wonderful and amazing families. the longer that i do this career the more i realize how much i love it. it amazes me what fantastic people there are that live here on earth. the stories of those who have passed on are amazing. it is really cool to see what people are able to complete in their lives. i just love the opportunity that i get to work in such a wonderful career. i feel so blessed and grateful for this chance that i have been given.

i even love getting up in the middle of the night and getting to get dressed as if it were morning and i was going to be up all day. i have the attitude that i should adn will look the same way as when they see me as they come in and make arrangements and do different things throughout the week. though it is hard sometimes to get up and shave and such. i do it. i wear a suit. and the greatest pay off is when the families comment on how professional they feel that i look. it makes me all warm and fuzzy inside to know that they appretiate that i take the time to get dressed the way that i do.

though at the beginning of my work there in the funeral home i was really worried about whether i would even be able to hear the phone go off or whether i would be able to get up and go out on the call and be able to function the next day. it truly is amazing to me that those nights when i get to get up and go help a family in the middle of the night that i am very much awake and allert the next day. take for example last night i received a call at 1:30 in the morning and there were a few more that followed and i didnt get home till about 4:40 this morning. what a wonderful night it was. one thing that i absolutely love that we do is that as we go in to remove a families loved one, we take in a little gift to leave for the family to let them know that we love them and that they are not alone. kind of the idea behind this is that we want to leave somthing in the room so that when the family comes back in there there is something there. so that they dont come back to a totally empty room. ideally we would leave a red rose, but as deaths are very unpredictable and the fact that there are times when we go a week or two without a single call, it really doesnt make a whole lot of sense to do the rose. so instead right now we are leaveing a little thing of chocolate hugs and kisses with a little saying letting the family know that we are there ANYTIME. that all they need to do is call and we are there.





i really love my job and am the luckiest guy alive. :)

procrastination....

so i am writing that paper about how the death of a child effects a family and i really am quite excited about it. i think that it is going to be a wonderful paper and in the process of writing it i am going to be learning alot of how it really does effect a family. it is due next friday. the problem being....

I AM ON SPRING BREAK

and really dont want to write this paper right now. i just honestly dont know how i am going to put it all together and present it in a wonderfully amazing professional way. i really should have it done so that i can get it edited, because it is not like it is just a two or three page paper. it is rather long and is going to take a while to get it all edited and sounding wonderful.

so i have started writing random paragraphs and have no idea where they are going to fit in at, but i am just writing whatever i feel that i need to and i guess i will just put it all together when i am done. i have written about 5 pages and i feel that there is a lot that is just ramble and quite honestly garbage at this point, but i am just writing and writing whatever i think of whatever comes to my mind and i will put it all together. it is amazing how things come together, especially when i am not writing this for me. i really feel very strongly that i am writing this for someone else.

there have been many people who have heard that i am writing this and have approached me and told me that they are interested in reading it and seeing what i have to say, which is cool, but it also puts a lot of pressure on me to make sure that this is a marvolous and wonderful paper that is worth even reading. i just hope that what i have to say and write can and will help people in an extremely tough time in their lives.

please keep me in mind as i am writing this paper so that it will first and formost be an asset that i can share with others, but also so that it will get a good grade and the teacher will be impressed by me and the fact that i wanted to take the assignment to a whole new level. a level that most students dont go to. they just take a topic that has been hounded and hounded and just put a little different spin on it. i am very happy with with the choice that i made to take and do something that is not at all in the box but that is very much out of the box.

life spins faster and faster...

is it just me of is the world going a million miles an hour. there never seems to be enough time to get anything done. it seems that just as you complete one task and get ready to head to the next one, the day is over and there is no time left.

it is also amazing to me the amount of people that i know that are getting married. wow it is kinda scary. i guess we are at that age now. it is time that we grow up and do what adults do. so ready or not, the world is coming at us. :)

a lesson learned...

i am english 102 at csi and we are starting to write our reseach papers. we were free to choose whatever pretty much that we wanted to write about. me, being the person that i am, i decided that i was going to write about death and dying in some form or another. i settled on the topic of: How Death Effects a Family with emphasis of How the Death of a Child Effects a Family. to be right honest the teacher was not at all excited with the idea of me doing this topic. for what reason i am not entirely sure why, there are could be many reasons. untimately i could care less. i fought and she is allowing me to write on this topic. i have been super excited since i found out.

well i had the great idea that i was going to conduct an interview. i emailed and asked Ms Teresa Burgess, who lost a son the summer before he entered his 10th grade year, if she was interested in doing an interview and helping me with the paper. i really didnt have my hopes up and was prepared for her to say that she would realy prefer to not. but she was ecstatic at the idea. so i went today and did the interview. it was really something that amazed me. i really didnt have any idea about how complex losing a child was. i really learned a lot from her and it is going to be a wonderful resource for me in my paper as well as just a fabulous resource for me as a person for the future. i will keep you up to date on how the paper is coming along.

been a while...

wow it has been a while since i have updated this thing. life for me has been good. i am just trying to hang in there and get through school. it is quite the process though. :) i am really enjoying the college ward and the calling that i have there as the secretary. i have some super good friends and i really enjoy hanging out with them and doing things. i went to to rexburg for the first time EVER!!! a couple of weeks ago. it was really fun and i really enjoyed being up there and the people that we hung out. it is really quite an wonderful place. i am really getting excited for spring break which is next week. i am hoping that maybe i can get out of twin at least for a few days and go somewhere and have some fun. :) we will see though.