Holiday Time

I can not even begin to express how excited I am that it is the holiday time again.  I love this time of year so much.  I, for the most part, enjoy all the time that is spent with family and all of the activities and parties that go on. 

Seeing how comercialized the holidays are getting and the fact that it is no longer acceptable to say "Merry Christmas" is rediculous I feel.  If it were not for the birth of Christ we would not be having this holiday season.  Sure there are other religions than christian and they have their holidays as well which is great and wonderful.  It is a major christian holiday and time of year so Merry Christmas is much better than Happy Holidays. 

It is just getting really sad what this world is coming to.  None the less have a wonderful holiday season.

cherish the time you have

what a week it has been.  it has been a good one but what a kinda stressful week it has been.  to start off with i had my group chapter presentation which was stupid and my group was dumb so...that didnt help matters any but...we got through it and that is really good.  :)

then for the best part of the week and also probably the most stressful.  there was a soldier who is from the twin falls area originally...he gave his all protecting our freedoms and he was brought home this week.  what a hard thing it must be for his family.  i can not even begin to imagine how hard that must be for them.  his wife was truly a trooper though.  as were his kids and his parents. he had a wife a ten year old and a five year old as well as parents and great friends he left behind. 

he came in on tuesday on a private plane with his best friend as his escort.  what a great honor that must be for that friend.  the military flies them into the closest airport, which happened to be twin falls.   they also obiously flew in his wife and kids with their casualty assistance officer. 

we worked with his wife getting everything lined up and giving him a fitting and honorable service for all that he has done for us Americans. 

thursday was his gather/viewing night.  what a night that was.  his family brought in soooo many photos and there was soooo many flowers there.  then there were a great multitude of friends and family and just people who wanted to pay respects who came.  it was fabulous.  there was a casket guard who stood by him the entire night.  i can not even describe how great it was.

then yesterday was his service.  it was huge and packed.  another great tribute to him and the service he rendered.  i  truly learned to appretiate the service and the military more than i had before.  i greatly respect her casualty officer and the respect that he showed for the soldiers wife.  he gave her space yet...was right there to help and assist and escort and dote on her.  it was great.  it was great to see how he took the honor of helping one of his fellow comrades wife through probably one of the toughest events in her life and maybe the toughest.  his number one goal was to do whatever and make sure everyone else did just what the widow wanted. 

it was a great service with fantastic music.  i had never heard a few of the the songs which were sung but they were great none the less.  one of them is "Fly to your Heart" and the other one is "To a Child"  i have been able to get a rendtion of the Fly to your Heart but have been unsuccessful in finding the other one to this point.  the Fly to your heart one though is:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ViGx1iHtkQ

the graveside service is where it got really touching i felt.  there was so much military and there was flags and an honor guard which walked him to his gravesite.  there was a twenty one gun awards for the service rendered.  flags folded and presented to his wife, two kids, and parents, more specific though his mom.  they all held it together really well though.  his best friend and escort and another one of his really good friends were the ones who folded his flag that draped the casket.  his escort is the one who presented all the flags.  they then had a fly over.  as he was a helicoper pilot they had four of the helicopters which he flew fly over and then one of them took off and few away.  it is called a missing man formation symbolizing that one has left the fight but the fight remains and there is more work to do.  it truly a touching thing.  there were many high ranking officers and such which came to be there for the family.  The soldiers captain flew in.  also another thing that touched me was that a large group of the widows friends who she has been associating with down in Hawaii flew in and surprised her.  at the end of the service they all walked over and stood by the casket and grasped the dog tags of their loved one and husband who is still over seas fighting for their lives and for the freedom we enjoy.  and they just sobbed.  

his wife was a wonder to work with.  she was fantastic and taking it really well.  i felt it an honor to get to work with her and would love to work with people like her all the time who take the death well and have the attitude that everything is going to be alright and that everything happens for a reason.  that though we may not understand the meaning at the time, that in time everything will make sense. 

then as i reflected on the day last night it hit me really REALLY hard.  as i sat and thought i can not even begin to imagine the feelings she has and the reality that she is alone now.  she has two children which she has to raise and teach correctly and continue to help them know who their dad was.  to know she must now walk the path alone.  sure she has family and a others but....to a large extent, she is alone, at least for now.  i just could hardly fathem that feelings she has.  and that she is leaving him here in idaho where they are both from and she is returning to Hawaii at least for now. 

try if you can to think about it.  i really think that it will blow your mind. sure losing your partner at anytime is hard but...at such a young age with young chilren...i think that is a lot harder than someone who has had their spouse for 50 years though that presents its own set of challenges but...

so i guess the point of this post in large was to share just a little of the wonderful/stressful/sad/whatever week that i have had.  and to continue all to encourage you all to really cherish the time you have left. for you never know how much time you have left.  for tomorrow is no guarentee.  all we have is to live for today.  and to make it the best that we possibly can make it.  :) 

Today i gave my first speech in communications.  It went well.  I was real pleased with the results.  I got an A on the speech.  Now I just have to get a topic for my next persuasive speech.  If anyone has any ideas let me know.  Thanks

• People take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lost.

i saw that quote and it just hit me pretty hard.  i dont really know why.  it was just too cool to me.  it really is soo true as well.  we all have to live the life we are destine to live. it is not always easy or the way everyone would like it all the time.  in fact it is not always the way that we would want it sometimes.  we just have to trust.  trust that things will work out just the way that they are are suppose to because they will...

You really only get over someone when you find someone you like better.

another day in my life...

it is another day in my life.  i really hate saying goodbye to people and today i had to say goodbye to my who i have worked with for the last year.  she has been a great influence on our company.  we def are going to miss her at work.  it will be ok.  we will get over it.  we cant have the best forever.  just for a moment then they are gone.

taking the next step

Well I am pretty sure the time has come for me to move out. It has been a wonderful time here but...it is just time. I am growing up and wanting to do my own things and the parents are not like that so much. I have already been informed that I have to be moved out by May. It also has been moved to December. I am not real sure how serious that one is. I know that it is May for sure though. I am just tired and done with it though. So....short of the long. I am looking for a new place to call home. I have a few ideas but am not real sure what I am going to do or where this new road is going to take me. :) We will see. It is def going to be a growing and learning experience for me. I think that it is going to be good though. At least i hope that it is. :)

update on life

Man it sure has been a while since I have written a post and updated everyone on the happenings in my life. Well honestly there is not a whole lot which has happened but some has so I guess that it is a good time to update.

I am just sitting here watching conference and thinking about how despite the stresses in my life, it is ok and that I am going to make it through and be better for having went through the trials.

I am still going to school here at CSI. It has been a good time. It is a learning experience. I am not sure that I am doing so much learning as far as the education goes. I am really learning alot about life and the stresses that comes with growing up and being an adult.

As i sit here thinking about how almost a year ago my friend left on a mission to Tempe, Arizona, it scares me. I know that I have accomplished a lot but on the other hand I sit here and think about how, what have I done in the year that he has been gone?

I am so blessed in life though. I have such a great and loving family. I also have many fantastic friends. Friends that live here in Twin Falls as well as all over the United States and some which are even out of the states at the moment.

It has been amazing to me to learn of the effect which I have on people everyday. It makes me real happy inside. I had no idea how much some people really look up to me. I try to live my life in a way that would allow me to never have any regrets. I think about what I have to say and think, if this is the last thing that I ever say to this person is it really what I want to say. Is it truly how i feel? I have learned that because of this I have had a tremendous impact on the lives of people.

I have been trying to slow down in life and not take everything so serious. I am trying to build relationships and do things that I would not normally do. I have done a lot more hanging out and not as much being an adult per say. Life is too short to be taken so seriously all the time.

Well I guess that is enough update for now. Until next time...

45 Things to Remember in Life

I saw this on a friends page and thought that it was super cool and true. She bolded the ones that she thought were most important and so did I. I just took it and copied it into a word file to keep forever and unbolded the ones she thought were important and then bolded the ones that I thought were. It is really kinda interesting and cool. I would suggest it to anyone, and maybe add a few of your own to the list.

Here are mine for you all to see.

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone and everything..
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do..
35. Don't audit life... Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."

well i have started another semester of school. so far it has been pretty good and i hope that it continues that way. i guess we will just have to see how it all turns out. :)

INTENSE WEEKEND

What an intense weekend. My Grandpa who has been fighting cancer for the last nearly three years was admitted to the ICU. They were not real sure what was wrong and still are not real sure what is wrong. They just keep finding things that are wrong. It is def getting to the point that the curtains are beginning to close on his life. It has been a life well lived and a fight well fought. When that time comes it will be alright. I think that the family is beginning to be a little more accepting. It is really hard that is for sure.

Faith in God includes faith in His timing

i thought that this was an amazing quote

"We may one day have both fame and fortune, and learn that neither is basic for true success and complete happiness."

Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't
change. Kiss slowly, Love always, play hard, forgive quickly, take chances, give
everything, and have no regrets. Life is too short to be anything but happy!

Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change. Kiss slowly, Love always, play hard, forgive quickly, take chances, give everything, and have no regrets. Life is too short to be anything but happy!

Sometimes you got to forget what you want, and remember what you deserve.

busy busy busy

It has been a very long time since I have written to update everyone. It has been a super busy time though. It has been a good time. I have been able to work so much. I am so glad and hope that it will continue throughout the summer and possibly even pick up and get busier so that I can work more. :)

back home

Well my mini vacation to Denver is over. It was soo much fun. I had the time of my life with the best cousin. He was graduating from high school and I flew out there to see him and to hang out. We sure did a lot of it. We went to some great places to eat and I got to meet a few of the kids that he hangs out with. We went to graduation and just got to have some awesome guy time. We did a lot of talking and catching up on old times. We sure don't get to do that very often anymore and it was just super nice to get to do that, hang out, and just be away for a few days. We talked about possibly doing it again this summer and then him coming to Idaho to hang. We will just have to see what ends up happening though. I think that it would be super fun to do it again. It was fantastic. Thank you so much, Alex, Jayne, Ron, and Max. IT WAS SUPER!!

trip...

Well...I have flown for the first time in my life to Denver to see my awesome cousin. It was really pretty fun and I am having tons of fun. I will have to update when it is all over. :)

finally coming to an end...

Well my second semester is coming to a close. Finally it is over. It has been a good semester and I have learned and done alot. I have more of an understanding that I need to be doing things for the reasons that are my own and not for anyone else. That I should be doing things because I would like, not because anyone else wants me to. It is finals week this week and I only have my english final, so that will be good. I really should have tryed a little harder this semester so that I could have passed accounting with the C so that I didnt have to do it again. O well i guess. I then go to Salt Lake on Friday to see some friends and such and get on a plane Saturday morning to head to see my cousin. I am so excited. I do need to get organized and packed for my trip. I first need to find out what the plan is so that I will know what to take to Denver with me. :)

busy busy

It has been a super busy week. With the new changes at work I have have been down there like all the time. If I am not in school I am probably at work. It has been super fun and I have really enjoyed meeting some of the other part time people that work as well. I am really super excited to see what all is going to become of work with all the changes as of recent.

what a wonderful day...

Today was absolutly wonderful. It was great. I bought my ticket for my trip to Denver in a couple of weeks. It should be really fun. I am soo excited. I have never flown before though so that should be a little interesting, but i know that it will be great and that I am going to have an absolutly fanstastic time. I also found out some great news at work today that we are going to be taking a more proactive approach to becoming a single company. I have thought that this is something that we should have done a little while ago, but everything happens in its own time. When it is suppose to happen is when it does not a minute before. :) It was a little cold today but that is ok. It really is great. Life is looking soo good right now. We will have to see what tomorrow brings. :)

Wonderful Performance

Over the weekend I got the opportunity to go to a performance that the missionaries from the Boise, Idaho mission were putting on. It was really pretty amazing. I really was unsure that I wanted to be there after I got there but decided that I would stay around and see what it was. When I first got there it was just like Sr. Citizen date night. :) It was really great and fantastic once it got started. They were extremely talented. There were about five missionaries that just rotated through and sang and there were others that would come up and say a few words between the songs. They had some beautiful songs that they sang. The theme of the evening was: Christ The Light, the Life, and the Way. They were very creative and did a fanstatic job.

purchase

I got an iPod touch yesterday. It is pretty sweet. :)

Todays Task....

Today I am working on editing my paper for Monday. I will be so super excited to be done with school and be able to PARTY! This is the final essay that we have to write for English 102, and then all we have to do is edit the research paper and one of our choice to turn in for the final portfolio. So needless to say, I am just making this On essay so that it flows better then I will turn in and really edit it for the final portfolio. I really like my topics but just have the hardest times sitting down and writing papers on it. I guess that I have such a hard time because of the simple fact that I want everything to be perfect and I just constantly worry that it isn’t perfect. I guess I should know that I have to work to have the best. I guess that everything will work out the way that it is suppose to because EVERYTHING happens for a reason.

weather

Wow the weather here is so stupid. It was so nice earlier this week, and now it is cold and nasty again. It is gross. The weather needs to get figured out. Haha :)

trip....

I am kinda excited. I am going to go on a trip coming up soon. I have never flown and so I am going to. I am going to go to Denver and visit my cousin the week or so or less of his graduation. I am really pretty excited about it. :)

wonderful day

today was a wonderful day. it was warm and nice. it was fabulous. i am soo excited for spring and summer. i love to be able to wear shorts and have it be warm and wonderful. :)

Sick and Tired

I am so super excited for school to be over. I will be so glad when the semester is over. I will have one year of school over with. That is so wonderfully amazing. I am so greatful for the experience that I have had this year. I am so sick and tired of school though. I am ready for the summer and all that comes with that. It is finally nice in Twin Falls and I hope that it stays that way. I am so sick of winter and that crap. I like that the warm weather. I will be so happy when school is over for the semester. :)

quote of the day

If YOU don’t STAND for SOMETHING, you’ll FALL for ANYTHING!

quote of the day

Face trouble with courage, disappointment with cheerfulness, and triumph with humility.
---Thomas S. Monson

what a week

Thank goodness it is the weekend. Sometimes it is so wonderful to get to Friday! Like I don't know why exactly I am so glad that and tired from this week, but I am. I am really looking forward to just do some relaxing. :)

Courage does not always roar. Sometimes it is a quiet voice at the end of the day, saying… “I will try again tomorrow.”

Taking Hard Steps In Life

It has been an interesting weekend so far. Well actually I guess it is more, an interesting day. I learned a very valuable lesson today. It is something that I thought I have known for a long time, but it really set in today and this quote lines it out wonderfully.

Walk by faith NOT by sight

Today we did a service for a 16 year old young man that suddenly passed away. I have known his sister since i think like 7th grade. He also played football with my brother. It has been extremely hard thing for them as a family, as it would be. They do not know for sure what the cause of death is which makes it even harder on them. The medical examiner has ruled out many things that it was not, but that doesn't really help.

Anyway, as I mentioned, the service today and I really learned some wonderful lessons from the speakers and those who participated today. Overal the lesson that I feel was being taught today was that we truly walk by faith, NOT by sight. It is hard to accept that a child has died. It really is a hard thing for families to go through. In my time working in the funeral home I have always known this and have learned in every service. Sometimes there are just services that really reaffirm in my mind and heart it.

I really liked the quote that the family put on the folder. I guess it is something that the young man really and honestly lived by. It is:

Live each day as if it is a gift, not a free ride.

I really liked it as well. It is something that we all as a human population needs to learn and impliment in our lives. We need to take the time to enjoy every moment that we are given because we really don't know how much time we have left to live.

?????

If I were to die tomorrow, what would you say to me today?

wow jump down my throat...

Wow this evening there was a kid that totally jumped down my throat. i was rather affended. He had commented that he would be a little late because he had to go pick up some key and that he would call me to make sure he knew how to get there. Well so when it was all done, I noticed that he hadnt gotten there so I texted him and told him I was glad to see you could make it.

Then comes the interesting part. He sends me back this message cussing me out about how busy he and his life are. I thought to myself wow, who do you think you are. Then what makes that whole thing so funny is that he is just like others. He feels that he needs to critisize and make others feel bad when they are not at the activities that he is, but by golly he can miss whatever he wants, because:

HE IS BUSY, AND HAS A BUSY LIFE!!!!

Now don't we all have busy lifes and commitments???

I know that I do, and that I would never judge someone for not coming, and I know that i wouldn't act the way that some people do about it. Whatever though. :) Life goes on, and life is too short to get worked up and stress over little stupid things like that, I just had to let out my feelings. :)

dancing

Tonight I went and saw Southern Utah University Ballroom Dance Company perform at CSI Fine Arts Center. It was super cool. They were amazing. I was a little late to the performance because I had another event I was at. So...I was an hour late. But what I saw of it, it was super good.

I really wish I could dance. I also wish I could dance like them.

very greatful

Well I have finished my paper. Well kinda. I have not turned it in, and I have just sent it to be editted. So i guess really I am not done, but i almost am. I really feel good about the paper and what I presented. I just hope that my teacher feels that it is good.

I really am surprised that there have been so many people that have approached me and said that they were interested in reading it. I just hope that I can remember all of you who have expressed interest in it.

thank you captain obvious...

this was just simply too good to pass up. my accounting/business law teacher is a very interesting man. over the course of this semester we have learned many interesting things that as far as i am concerned any normal person would know. well apparently he doesnt feel the same as me.

the first thing that we learned was what a statue was in business law. "for those of you who don't know, it is a little figurine that is usually made out of wood or metal." wow i was floored. i had no idea that someone would not know what a statue was. but....he felt the need to explain.

next in business law a few days later we learned what porno was. "it is nasty pictures of dirty movies" now if in this day and age people do not know what porn is, they have lived a very sheltered life. now i am not saying if they have not seen it, because i know that there are many of us that have not seen it. but there is a difference between seeing and knowing what it is. and i think that any normal person would at least know what it is. but....i guess he felt the need to explain.

then yesterday i got a double whammy.

in business law he told us what a twinkie was. once again i thought that was something that most everyone knows what they are but...this was his explanation. "they are sugary treats made by hostess." as i said i really didnt think that he needed to explain what a twinkie was. but...i guess he did.
later yesterday i went to accounting and we were going along and he decides that he is going to tell us what tourette's syndrome was. this one i could maybe understand explaining a little. unfortunately i didnt feel well yesterday and didnt get his explanation but...the explanation was not what was so funny about this whole thing. it was the fact that he was running around the room making very odd sounds that i didnt even know existed. i guess another thing that made me think it was so odd was that it had nothing to do with the class. he just stopped and started explaining it. whereas the other things that he has done had something to do with what we were talking about in class.

well i just hope that all this wonderful pieces of information that he has taught us helps us on the test. somehow i dont think that they will, but maybe possibly.

i think i am going to die

i really do not feel well at all.

adventure of spring break

as i previously mentioned, i am on spring break. i am really having a greaat time. i really was worried about the whole idea that it was spring break. i def needed the break but had no fantasticly wonderful plans. i really had been wanting to go someplace warm and to fly. i have never flown and i really wanted to. i had some great plans and was going to go to somewhere like hawaii or vegas. i really was going to take off and go. i didnt have anyone to go with, but i figured you know what, i will just go to vegas for a day or so and have a good time. i really thought long and hard and came to the conclution that i was not going to go. i am not sure why exactly i didnt. i want to say that because i didnt i am safer. i dont know that there would have been anything that would have happened, but decided that i was not going to go.

because i didnt go....

i have been able to stay home here in twin and have had a wonderful opportunity to work. i have been working almost everyday. it has been wonderful. instead of going somewhere and spending money, i am here and earning money. what a good trade off. at least that is what i thought. i have gotten to meet some absolutely wonderful and amazing families. the longer that i do this career the more i realize how much i love it. it amazes me what fantastic people there are that live here on earth. the stories of those who have passed on are amazing. it is really cool to see what people are able to complete in their lives. i just love the opportunity that i get to work in such a wonderful career. i feel so blessed and grateful for this chance that i have been given.

i even love getting up in the middle of the night and getting to get dressed as if it were morning and i was going to be up all day. i have the attitude that i should adn will look the same way as when they see me as they come in and make arrangements and do different things throughout the week. though it is hard sometimes to get up and shave and such. i do it. i wear a suit. and the greatest pay off is when the families comment on how professional they feel that i look. it makes me all warm and fuzzy inside to know that they appretiate that i take the time to get dressed the way that i do.

though at the beginning of my work there in the funeral home i was really worried about whether i would even be able to hear the phone go off or whether i would be able to get up and go out on the call and be able to function the next day. it truly is amazing to me that those nights when i get to get up and go help a family in the middle of the night that i am very much awake and allert the next day. take for example last night i received a call at 1:30 in the morning and there were a few more that followed and i didnt get home till about 4:40 this morning. what a wonderful night it was. one thing that i absolutely love that we do is that as we go in to remove a families loved one, we take in a little gift to leave for the family to let them know that we love them and that they are not alone. kind of the idea behind this is that we want to leave somthing in the room so that when the family comes back in there there is something there. so that they dont come back to a totally empty room. ideally we would leave a red rose, but as deaths are very unpredictable and the fact that there are times when we go a week or two without a single call, it really doesnt make a whole lot of sense to do the rose. so instead right now we are leaveing a little thing of chocolate hugs and kisses with a little saying letting the family know that we are there ANYTIME. that all they need to do is call and we are there.





i really love my job and am the luckiest guy alive. :)

procrastination....

so i am writing that paper about how the death of a child effects a family and i really am quite excited about it. i think that it is going to be a wonderful paper and in the process of writing it i am going to be learning alot of how it really does effect a family. it is due next friday. the problem being....

I AM ON SPRING BREAK

and really dont want to write this paper right now. i just honestly dont know how i am going to put it all together and present it in a wonderfully amazing professional way. i really should have it done so that i can get it edited, because it is not like it is just a two or three page paper. it is rather long and is going to take a while to get it all edited and sounding wonderful.

so i have started writing random paragraphs and have no idea where they are going to fit in at, but i am just writing whatever i feel that i need to and i guess i will just put it all together when i am done. i have written about 5 pages and i feel that there is a lot that is just ramble and quite honestly garbage at this point, but i am just writing and writing whatever i think of whatever comes to my mind and i will put it all together. it is amazing how things come together, especially when i am not writing this for me. i really feel very strongly that i am writing this for someone else.

there have been many people who have heard that i am writing this and have approached me and told me that they are interested in reading it and seeing what i have to say, which is cool, but it also puts a lot of pressure on me to make sure that this is a marvolous and wonderful paper that is worth even reading. i just hope that what i have to say and write can and will help people in an extremely tough time in their lives.

please keep me in mind as i am writing this paper so that it will first and formost be an asset that i can share with others, but also so that it will get a good grade and the teacher will be impressed by me and the fact that i wanted to take the assignment to a whole new level. a level that most students dont go to. they just take a topic that has been hounded and hounded and just put a little different spin on it. i am very happy with with the choice that i made to take and do something that is not at all in the box but that is very much out of the box.

life spins faster and faster...

is it just me of is the world going a million miles an hour. there never seems to be enough time to get anything done. it seems that just as you complete one task and get ready to head to the next one, the day is over and there is no time left.

it is also amazing to me the amount of people that i know that are getting married. wow it is kinda scary. i guess we are at that age now. it is time that we grow up and do what adults do. so ready or not, the world is coming at us. :)

a lesson learned...

i am english 102 at csi and we are starting to write our reseach papers. we were free to choose whatever pretty much that we wanted to write about. me, being the person that i am, i decided that i was going to write about death and dying in some form or another. i settled on the topic of: How Death Effects a Family with emphasis of How the Death of a Child Effects a Family. to be right honest the teacher was not at all excited with the idea of me doing this topic. for what reason i am not entirely sure why, there are could be many reasons. untimately i could care less. i fought and she is allowing me to write on this topic. i have been super excited since i found out.

well i had the great idea that i was going to conduct an interview. i emailed and asked Ms Teresa Burgess, who lost a son the summer before he entered his 10th grade year, if she was interested in doing an interview and helping me with the paper. i really didnt have my hopes up and was prepared for her to say that she would realy prefer to not. but she was ecstatic at the idea. so i went today and did the interview. it was really something that amazed me. i really didnt have any idea about how complex losing a child was. i really learned a lot from her and it is going to be a wonderful resource for me in my paper as well as just a fabulous resource for me as a person for the future. i will keep you up to date on how the paper is coming along.

been a while...

wow it has been a while since i have updated this thing. life for me has been good. i am just trying to hang in there and get through school. it is quite the process though. :) i am really enjoying the college ward and the calling that i have there as the secretary. i have some super good friends and i really enjoy hanging out with them and doing things. i went to to rexburg for the first time EVER!!! a couple of weeks ago. it was really fun and i really enjoyed being up there and the people that we hung out. it is really quite an wonderful place. i am really getting excited for spring break which is next week. i am hoping that maybe i can get out of twin at least for a few days and go somewhere and have some fun. :) we will see though.

Learning

Well I am beginning to make some progress. I was really unsure about what I was doing, but I think that things are making more sense and I think that I may be able to do it. We will see though. :)