procrastination....

so i am writing that paper about how the death of a child effects a family and i really am quite excited about it. i think that it is going to be a wonderful paper and in the process of writing it i am going to be learning alot of how it really does effect a family. it is due next friday. the problem being....

I AM ON SPRING BREAK

and really dont want to write this paper right now. i just honestly dont know how i am going to put it all together and present it in a wonderfully amazing professional way. i really should have it done so that i can get it edited, because it is not like it is just a two or three page paper. it is rather long and is going to take a while to get it all edited and sounding wonderful.

so i have started writing random paragraphs and have no idea where they are going to fit in at, but i am just writing whatever i feel that i need to and i guess i will just put it all together when i am done. i have written about 5 pages and i feel that there is a lot that is just ramble and quite honestly garbage at this point, but i am just writing and writing whatever i think of whatever comes to my mind and i will put it all together. it is amazing how things come together, especially when i am not writing this for me. i really feel very strongly that i am writing this for someone else.

there have been many people who have heard that i am writing this and have approached me and told me that they are interested in reading it and seeing what i have to say, which is cool, but it also puts a lot of pressure on me to make sure that this is a marvolous and wonderful paper that is worth even reading. i just hope that what i have to say and write can and will help people in an extremely tough time in their lives.

please keep me in mind as i am writing this paper so that it will first and formost be an asset that i can share with others, but also so that it will get a good grade and the teacher will be impressed by me and the fact that i wanted to take the assignment to a whole new level. a level that most students dont go to. they just take a topic that has been hounded and hounded and just put a little different spin on it. i am very happy with with the choice that i made to take and do something that is not at all in the box but that is very much out of the box.